My Dear Angie,
I know right now, it seems as though your world is falling apart. Your heart is breaking, you cry yourself to sleep, and your mind keeps wandering to why. Why did this happen to you. I cannot explain men. I do not understand them. They can have the best girl in the world, someone who’d give them all they want, and do so with a happy heart. Someone who’ll be there, support, take care of them. And they will throw her away, like a piece of trash. Sometimes for another woman, sometimes for a different life style, sometimes because they were simply playing her. But they do. And sadly, it’s good women like yourself, who gets the blow. Who gets hurt. Who is left with their heart shattered to pieces.
My dear Angie, things will get better. You’re heart will mend one day at a time. Some days will be better than others. Someday’s you’ll get up, you’ll smile, and all will feel great. You wont’ even think of him much. Then someday’s you’ll wake up a mess. You may have cried yourself to sleep the night before, hardly slept. You just can’t get your mind off of the past, the things he said, the promises he made, how he held you, kissed you, made you feel all safe and secure. Just to rip it away, without notice, without regret. How he moved on so quickly. And you wont’ understand. You won’t understand anything. How he could just turn his feelings off.
It’s OK to cry. It’s OK to mourn. But my dear Angie, it’s not OK to stay there. Have this time. Cry, be sad, get mad, and angry if you have to. But then move on! Move on and live your life. Do NOT let him define you. DO NOT like him control you, do not give him that power. Instead, rise above. Shake him off. Realize that you deserve better. You deserve to be with someone who WANTS to be with you, and means. Not just saying the words. You deserve to be with someone who’ll treat you like a princess. Someone who’ll cherish you. Who’ll mean what he says, and backs it up. You deserve to better, than what he was willing to give you!
There is someone out there for you, someone who’ll treat you right, and he’ll come into your life at the right time, on God’s time! It’s important you seek a good Godly man. Someone grounded in his faith, who has a relationship with God, and beware, many men can claim this, but this doesn’t mean he’s being honest with you, or himself. Seek someone you can pray with, and who’ll pray for you. Someone who’ll encourage you to grow in God. Someone who is active in church. These things are important. I know waiting is hard, and I know it’s easy to give up, when you’re heart is breaking. But you can do this.
My dear Angie, take your heartbreak to the Lord. Give it to Him, and find comfort in Him. Start praying, seeking Him through reading the bible! He’ll heal that broken heart. Ask Him what HE want’s you to do, seek Him first! It’s not always easy, but it’s so very worth it.
I’m praying for you my dear Angie. I know you go this. It’s just going to take time.